urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932 but it's life Erin 2008-03-18T17:29:27Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:22681 2008-03-18T17:29:27Z 2008-03-18T17:29:27Z damien rice i still read and post to this thing.<br />it kinda hurts when i find stuff written about me but oh well.<br /><br /><br />anyways i can't wait to get out of here. only 1 day left!<br />can't wait to get away from you and you and yoooou.<br />so much drama going on lately. doesn't seem like it wil stop.<br /><br />i'm happy and i'm not happy.<br />i always do the same thing over again and i fuck it up.<br />i say this every journal but the same thing keeps happening in my life and i want it to stop. i just want someone good in my life to come along. never seems to happen and everyone seems to be happy and it crushes me to be around people.<br /><br />i don't want to work tonight and have to deal with people. <br />deal with saucy managers and a bitch supervisor but i think i'm quitting soon and find myself a new job. i just wannnt money and need money so bad. <br />i think i need glases too i can barely see.<br />i need to know math for tomorrow.<br />i need batteries and i need to pack. ohmy.<br /><br /><br />get me out of her. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:22335 2008-03-05T01:54:07Z 2008-03-05T01:54:07Z i love this feeling so much. <br />when my face turns all red and i get butterflies in my stomach.<br />i just want to scream!!<br /><br />i'm so excited for the future now. <br />so much could happen<br /><br /><br />eee:D:D:D urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:22198 2008-02-12T01:01:30Z 2008-02-12T01:01:30Z i'm pretty sure i haven't been happy in years.<br />oh being a teenager.<br /><br />that sounds so depressing but i can't really be happy when people are always bringing you down.<br /><br /><br />newyork newyork<br />icannotwait. march 21st will be the happiest day in a while! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:21770 2008-02-01T15:57:49Z 2008-02-01T15:57:49Z why does everything seem to happen over and over again in my life?<br /><br />feel like it's all repeating!<br /><br />cannot wait to get out of here. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:21587 2007-12-26T03:58:48Z 2007-12-26T03:58:48Z my christmas cheer went from 10 - 0.<br />really sucks when someone has to ruin your day. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:21352 2007-12-09T22:38:30Z 2007-12-09T22:38:30Z metric - love is a place it's kinda weird. i thought as you get older, you get more mature, smarter and make more intelligent decisions but i feel is if right now, i'm making horrible decisions. one's i know i'm going to regret in the future. i think i should start focusing on my future and stop worrying about what is going on now because in 5 even 10 years, none of it will matter and it'll be all forgotten about. i'm getting upset over small things and i don't really look at the big picture. <br /><br />right now, i just need to figure things out. if i don't, i think i will regret most of the things i pursue. <br />the only thing i think that is going really good at the moment is work. it's the only thing i'm really working hard at. school is just a bore to me and i can not pay attentionlike i used to. it's basically a blurr. i wish there was just something else besides school. instead of that for 5 days a weeks. it takes up so much of our lives. <br /><br />at the same time of all this confusion, everything is somehow good? i enjoy myself when i'm out. i don't really want to go home early anymore. i just love my friends.<br /><br />oh my i feel so tied down when it comes to soccer. it was something i use to love but i'm getting bored of it now. it's making me hate it even more everytime i go because i play so much. the more and more i think of it the more i hate it. ruins everything.<br /><br /><br />anywayss<br />enough ranting urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:21188 2007-12-02T20:53:02Z 2007-12-02T20:54:15Z feist whenever i feel like something is going good, it all just comes crashing down.<br />this weekend made me think a lot. <br /><br />i love my friends though, a lot. they help soooo muccch urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:20833 2007-11-21T02:28:48Z 2007-11-21T02:30:10Z damien rice - 9 crimes some many things are different lately. i can't even comprehend it all.<br />i feel so grown up now and i don't want to at all. yes, grade 11 isn't that old but i just feel it. getting my license definately made it seem different.<br />people are changing so much as we get older. things were so simple when i was in grade 5. even grade 7 was better. i just remember having a group of friends just to hang out with all the time. everyone seems to have gone their own way. i actually hate it and just wonder why everyone can't get along anymore either. OHMY drama.<br /><br />but some things are going good. i can't complaing about everything.<br />christmas is so soon and i'm anxious! it's so exciting. the parade is next weekend i do believe. i can't wait. i hope my jacket gets here before it so i'm not cold. <br />aww yeah christmas can't come soon enough<br /><br />i realized the damien rice is such a good singer. i can't stop listening to him.<br /><br />off to bed! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:20589 2007-11-04T23:09:35Z 2007-11-04T23:09:35Z if things were the way they were a year ago, i'd be the happiest girl alive. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:20247 2007-09-10T02:00:13Z 2007-09-10T02:00:13Z metric i'm kinda upset about school. it feels so weird this year. next year will be even weirder. i don't even know.<br /><br />things are so up in the air lately! seems like there is always a little drama. aw high sko0l. <br />there needs to be a little bit of a change but whatever!<br /><br />edmonnnton 22 daysss urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:20168 2007-08-15T01:32:53Z 2007-08-15T01:32:53Z lost has become my new favorite show! i'm almost done the second season. it's so gooooood!! so exciting. i'm pretty obsessed with it!<br /><br />summmmer. i feel like i pretty much wasted it. yes, i have a job but i never got the chance to actually do the stuff i wanted. not once did i get to go swimming or just ly in the sun, relax with not having to worry about anything. i just want one day off!<br /><br />i don't really think many people read this anymore but i find it much better than bluekaffee. seems like no one uses that much anymore.<br /><br />anyways, the go it alone show is friday. i really want to go but i haven't been to a show in a long time and i think it'd be really weird. i'll go for a little bit!<br /><br />i don't really have much to say but i'm gone back to watching some lost<br /><br />byeee urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:19773 2007-08-02T03:11:11Z 2007-08-02T03:11:11Z x - nausea this summer is so weird and unexpected.<br />i actually thought it'd be a lot different. some good things and some bad things.<br /><br />the thing is i'm missing my 2 really good friends more than anything. i wish some things would change.<br /><br /><br />i love having money though but not the job. <br />i really need to start doing summer things, like swimming or just lieing down in the sun for once. ooh my<br /><br />not too much longer left. fun needs to happen! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:19610 2007-04-16T22:53:26Z 2007-04-16T22:53:26Z things would be a lot easier if i could change things. <br />change the things i've made a mess of in the past few months. <br />i think way too much about the things and can't let go. i guess that's my problem. just gotta let go. it'll happen<br /><br />i'm so mad we're back in school. i was enjoying my freedom. <br />i woke up this morning tired and i've been dropping ever since. i really need to catch up on sleep. that would be the best thing right now.<br />i can't even do that!<br /><br /><br />maaaaaay come. i've been so excited for toronto. it hurts! i wanan go so bad haha<br /><br /><br />oh well it'll come soon enough<br /><br />lets all hang out<br />i miss so many people urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:19317 2007-03-17T18:47:17Z 2007-03-17T18:47:17Z this has been the worse weekend ever.<br /><br />i've lost the only thing i really love and i feel like i've only got myself to blame but i shouldn't blame myself for things i didn't do.<br /><br />i wish things would go back to the way they were. this really sucks and i can't even do anything about it.<br /><br />i'm so hurt<br /><br /><br />i just wanna stay home and watch sad movies urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:18967 2007-02-27T23:31:16Z 2007-02-27T23:31:16Z one of these days my head is just going to explode.<br /><br />next weeednesday please. hopefully all goes well.<br /><br />everything really does suck lately and slowly getting worse. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:18777 2007-02-23T02:35:48Z 2007-02-23T02:35:48Z that's so stupid. <br /><br /><br />ohmy<br /><br />why does nothing ever go good??! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:18658 2007-02-11T18:53:32Z 2007-02-11T18:53:32Z this week comming was suppose to be good! <br /><br /><br />but now it'll be the longest weeeeeeek ever. <br /><br /><br />i want my birthday to come fast! only thing i'm looking forward to. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:18280 2007-01-12T03:25:02Z 2007-01-12T03:25:02Z metric- the twist exams exams exams<br />next friday! first one. canadian history. not really looking forward to it because there is so much stuff to remember but other than that, i don't think the rest of my exams are going to be that hard! <br />i just really need to start studying.<br /><br /><br />lately things have been really good. i haven't really updated in livejournal or wrote a journal on bk for that matter. things just don't seem important enough or that interesting to write about. <br />soccer, less sleep, being tired, tests!! thats everything basicalllllllly<br />i really should start going to bed earlier. i don't know what's going on. i never really liked going to bed at 1 am on a school night but that's the way its been going lately. <br />and i'm plain out tired in the day and end up takin' little naps in class. tssssssk<br /><br /><br />nah i'll get back on track. eventually<br /><br />where has everyone gone? i never see anyone anymore. there are a few people i really miss hanging out with. need to make some plans with people.<br /><br /><br />i should do this livejournal thing more often.<br /><br /><br />mmm <br /><br />can't really wait for exams to be over. can't wait till my mom finds out bout newyoooork. or just somewhere in general to go. i'll be so happy<br /><br />anyyyyyways<br /><br />goodnight!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:18169 2006-11-28T01:19:00Z 2006-11-28T01:19:00Z sparta everything seems really messed up lately. i don't know why though. <br />i haven't really seen anyone lately and schools a drag. <br /><br />i'm really mad that i can't have a night off tomorrow. it's the only holiday/day i have off for a while until christmas. the past weekend, i couldn't do anything and everyone seemed to have so much fun. this weekend i doubt i'll be able to do anything again!<br /><br />i'm so tired lately and it's kinda making me think a lot. i'm glad i took the morning off. sleeping in is the best. i also had a doctor's app. i'm glad she gave me that stuff because my ear's have been like blocked and my head has been hurting. maybe i can hear right and not have my ear's ringing all the time. i wish i could sleep in everyday and have something to do everyday after school. it's just not fun comming home and then sitting on this all the time.<br /><br />lately, i find people gettin more and more inconsiderate. i don't know what it is but i guess people are just growing up into that kind of persionality. i just can't be around people like that.<br /><br />i need some plans for the rest of the week so i won't be bored after school. i still need to shop for christmas gifts. i'm more excited for the holidays then christmas it's self. i hate buying gifts because i never have the money to spend and when i do i never want to spend it.<br /><br />i hope things start lookin' up. <br />the only thing i'm looking forward to is new years. it was so much fun last year. hopefully it will be just as fun and i will be around the people i want to be around. also, i hope 2007 will be good. i can't wait to go away and not have soccer.<br />toronto, montreal or new york!? me and my mom haven't really decided. new york to me seems too crowded, messy and big. even though toronto and montreal are big, i'd feel more safe in canada for some reason! i can't wait. i would love to see a concert anywhere i go too.<br /><br />too much thinking. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:17686 2006-11-15T20:43:38Z 2006-11-15T20:43:38Z youth attack uhhh uhhhhhh<br /><br />i knew things would start going bad once they got good, as usual! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:17596 2006-11-12T16:26:57Z 2006-11-12T16:26:57Z metric what's going on?<br />what is going onnnnnnnnn<br /><br />this weekend has been the weirdest weekend in a while. i don't know how to explain!<br />But, hopefully today i find some fun plans. <br /><br />come on christmas holidays! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:17269 2006-10-25T18:40:37Z 2006-10-25T18:41:36Z the smiths i hope all this bites you in the ass. <br /><br /><br /><br />i hope my weekend is going to be good. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:16786 2006-10-01T16:30:35Z 2006-10-01T16:30:35Z feist- secret heart man, i don't want to go away. as soon as things get good, i go away. same thing happening again as it did last year. all i can do.<br /><br />i love weekends now. last night was so much fun. i don't want to miss next weeks show but i'll still be away. 7 days is such a long time, especially missing 4 days of school. <br /><br />i don't want to study for math. this is my first time really studying since before summer.<br />i don't really miss summer. probably because i didn't have a great one.<br /><br />i should go study now.<br /><br />people should write more on livejournal so i can have more to read.<br /><br />byeee urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:16550 2006-09-24T15:30:44Z 2006-09-24T15:30:44Z everything sucks!<br /><br />so much urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:erin932:16237 2006-09-13T21:02:53Z 2006-09-13T21:02:53Z argh, i need plans for this weekend!<br /><br />i don't know what to do<br /><br />hopefully involving some fun timeeeeeees