it's tough kid

Tue, 18 Mar 2008 17:29:27 GMT

i still read and post to this thing.
it kinda hurts when i find stuff written about me but oh well.

anyways i can't wait to get out of here. only 1 day left!
can't wait to get away from you and you and yoooou.
so much drama going on lately. doesn't seem like it wil stop.

i'm happy and i'm not happy.
i always do the same thing over again and i fuck it up.
i say this every journal but the same thing keeps happening in my life and i want it to stop. i just want someone good in my life to come along. never seems to happen and everyone seems to be happy and it crushes me to be around people.

i don't want to work tonight and have to deal with people.
deal with saucy managers and a bitch supervisor but i think i'm quitting soon and find myself a new job. i just wannnt money and need money so bad.
i think i need glases too i can barely see.
i need to know math for tomorrow.
i need batteries and i need to pack. ohmy.

get me out of her.

Wed, 05 Mar 2008 01:54:07 GMT

i love this feeling so much.
when my face turns all red and i get butterflies in my stomach.
i just want to scream!!

i'm so excited for the future now.
so much could happen

eee:D:D:D

Tue, 12 Feb 2008 01:01:30 GMT

i'm pretty sure i haven't been happy in years.
oh being a teenager.

that sounds so depressing but i can't really be happy when people are always bringing you down.

newyork newyork
icannotwait. march 21st will be the happiest day in a while!

Fri, 01 Feb 2008 15:57:49 GMT

why does everything seem to happen over and over again in my life?

feel like it's all repeating!

cannot wait to get out of here.

Wed, 26 Dec 2007 03:58:48 GMT

my christmas cheer went from 10 - 0.
really sucks when someone has to ruin your day.

Sun, 09 Dec 2007 22:38:30 GMT

it's kinda weird. i thought as you get older, you get more mature, smarter and make more intelligent decisions but i feel is if right now, i'm making horrible decisions. one's i know i'm going to regret in the future. i think i should start focusing on my future and stop worrying about what is going on now because in 5 even 10 years, none of it will matter and it'll be all forgotten about. i'm getting upset over small things and i don't really look at the big picture.

right now, i just need to figure things out. if i don't, i think i will regret most of the things i pursue.
the only thing i think that is going really good at the moment is work. it's the only thing i'm really working hard at. school is just a bore to me and i can not pay attentionlike i used to. it's basically a blurr. i wish there was just something else besides school. instead of that for 5 days a weeks. it takes up so much of our lives.

at the same time of all this confusion, everything is somehow good? i enjoy myself when i'm out. i don't really want to go home early anymore. i just love my friends.

oh my i feel so tied down when it comes to soccer. it was something i use to love but i'm getting bored of it now. it's making me hate it even more everytime i go because i play so much. the more and more i think of it the more i hate it. ruins everything.

anywayss
enough ranting

Sun, 02 Dec 2007 20:53:02 GMT

whenever i feel like something is going good, it all just comes crashing down.
this weekend made me think a lot.

i love my friends though, a lot. they help soooo muccch

aw highschool

Wed, 21 Nov 2007 02:28:48 GMT

some many things are different lately. i can't even comprehend it all.
i feel so grown up now and i don't want to at all. yes, grade 11 isn't that old but i just feel it. getting my license definately made it seem different.
people are changing so much as we get older. things were so simple when i was in grade 5. even grade 7 was better. i just remember having a group of friends just to hang out with all the time. everyone seems to have gone their own way. i actually hate it and just wonder why everyone can't get along anymore either. OHMY drama.

but some things are going good. i can't complaing about everything.
christmas is so soon and i'm anxious! it's so exciting. the parade is next weekend i do believe. i can't wait. i hope my jacket gets here before it so i'm not cold.
aww yeah christmas can't come soon enough

i realized the damien rice is such a good singer. i can't stop listening to him.

off to bed!

Sun, 04 Nov 2007 23:09:35 GMT

if things were the way they were a year ago, i'd be the happiest girl alive.

Mon, 10 Sep 2007 02:00:13 GMT

i'm kinda upset about school. it feels so weird this year. next year will be even weirder. i don't even know.

things are so up in the air lately! seems like there is always a little drama. aw high sko0l.
there needs to be a little bit of a change but whatever!

edmonnnton 22 daysss

Wed, 15 Aug 2007 01:32:53 GMT

lost has become my new favorite show! i'm almost done the second season. it's so gooooood!! so exciting. i'm pretty obsessed with it!

summmmer. i feel like i pretty much wasted it. yes, i have a job but i never got the chance to actually do the stuff i wanted. not once did i get to go swimming or just ly in the sun, relax with not having to worry about anything. i just want one day off!

i don't really think many people read this anymore but i find it much better than bluekaffee. seems like no one uses that much anymore.

anyways, the go it alone show is friday. i really want to go but i haven't been to a show in a long time and i think it'd be really weird. i'll go for a little bit!

i don't really have much to say but i'm gone back to watching some lost

byeee

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 03:11:11 GMT

this summer is so weird and unexpected.
i actually thought it'd be a lot different. some good things and some bad things.

the thing is i'm missing my 2 really good friends more than anything. i wish some things would change.

i love having money though but not the job.
i really need to start doing summer things, like swimming or just lieing down in the sun for once. ooh my

not too much longer left. fun needs to happen!

Mon, 16 Apr 2007 22:53:26 GMT

things would be a lot easier if i could change things.
change the things i've made a mess of in the past few months.
i think way too much about the things and can't let go. i guess that's my problem. just gotta let go. it'll happen

i'm so mad we're back in school. i was enjoying my freedom.
i woke up this morning tired and i've been dropping ever since. i really need to catch up on sleep. that would be the best thing right now.
i can't even do that!

maaaaaay come. i've been so excited for toronto. it hurts! i wanan go so bad haha

oh well it'll come soon enough

lets all hang out
i miss so many people

Sat, 17 Mar 2007 18:47:17 GMT

this has been the worse weekend ever.

i've lost the only thing i really love and i feel like i've only got myself to blame but i shouldn't blame myself for things i didn't do.

i wish things would go back to the way they were. this really sucks and i can't even do anything about it.

i'm so hurt

i just wanna stay home and watch sad movies

Tue, 27 Feb 2007 23:31:16 GMT

one of these days my head is just going to explode.

next weeednesday please. hopefully all goes well.

everything really does suck lately and slowly getting worse.

Fri, 23 Feb 2007 02:35:48 GMT

that's so stupid.

ohmy

why does nothing ever go good??!

Sun, 11 Feb 2007 18:53:32 GMT

this week comming was suppose to be good!

but now it'll be the longest weeeeeeek ever.

i want my birthday to come fast! only thing i'm looking forward to.

study study study

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 03:25:02 GMT

exams exams exams
next friday! first one. canadian history. not really looking forward to it because there is so much stuff to remember but other than that, i don't think the rest of my exams are going to be that hard!
i just really need to start studying.

lately things have been really good. i haven't really updated in livejournal or wrote a journal on bk for that matter. things just don't seem important enough or that interesting to write about.
soccer, less sleep, being tired, tests!! thats everything basicalllllllly
i really should start going to bed earlier. i don't know what's going on. i never really liked going to bed at 1 am on a school night but that's the way its been going lately.
and i'm plain out tired in the day and end up takin' little naps in class. tssssssk

nah i'll get back on track. eventually

where has everyone gone? i never see anyone anymore. there are a few people i really miss hanging out with. need to make some plans with people.

i should do this livejournal thing more often.

mmm

can't really wait for exams to be over. can't wait till my mom finds out bout newyoooork. or just somewhere in general to go. i'll be so happy

anyyyyyways

goodnight!!

Tue, 28 Nov 2006 01:19:00 GMT

everything seems really messed up lately. i don't know why though.
i haven't really seen anyone lately and schools a drag.

i'm really mad that i can't have a night off tomorrow. it's the only holiday/day i have off for a while until christmas. the past weekend, i couldn't do anything and everyone seemed to have so much fun. this weekend i doubt i'll be able to do anything again!

i'm so tired lately and it's kinda making me think a lot. i'm glad i took the morning off. sleeping in is the best. i also had a doctor's app. i'm glad she gave me that stuff because my ear's have been like blocked and my head has been hurting. maybe i can hear right and not have my ear's ringing all the time. i wish i could sleep in everyday and have something to do everyday after school. it's just not fun comming home and then sitting on this all the time.

lately, i find people gettin more and more inconsiderate. i don't know what it is but i guess people are just growing up into that kind of persionality. i just can't be around people like that.

i need some plans for the rest of the week so i won't be bored after school. i still need to shop for christmas gifts. i'm more excited for the holidays then christmas it's self. i hate buying gifts because i never have the money to spend and when i do i never want to spend it.

i hope things start lookin' up.
the only thing i'm looking forward to is new years. it was so much fun last year. hopefully it will be just as fun and i will be around the people i want to be around. also, i hope 2007 will be good. i can't wait to go away and not have soccer.
toronto, montreal or new york!? me and my mom haven't really decided. new york to me seems too crowded, messy and big. even though toronto and montreal are big, i'd feel more safe in canada for some reason! i can't wait. i would love to see a concert anywhere i go too.

too much thinking.

Wed, 15 Nov 2006 20:43:38 GMT

uhhh uhhhhhh

i knew things would start going bad once they got good, as usual!

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 16:26:57 GMT

what's going on?
what is going onnnnnnnnn

this weekend has been the weirdest weekend in a while. i don't know how to explain!
But, hopefully today i find some fun plans.

come on christmas holidays!

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 18:40:37 GMT

i hope all this bites you in the ass.

i hope my weekend is going to be good.

Sun, 01 Oct 2006 16:30:35 GMT

man, i don't want to go away. as soon as things get good, i go away. same thing happening again as it did last year. all i can do.

i love weekends now. last night was so much fun. i don't want to miss next weeks show but i'll still be away. 7 days is such a long time, especially missing 4 days of school.

i don't want to study for math. this is my first time really studying since before summer.
i don't really miss summer. probably because i didn't have a great one.

i should go study now.

people should write more on livejournal so i can have more to read.

byeee

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 15:30:44 GMT

everything sucks!

so much

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 21:02:53 GMT

argh, i need plans for this weekend!

i don't know what to do

hopefully involving some fun timeeeeeees